Tuesday, 15 April 2025

Somewhere between 100% and 40%

 I always wonder why some people can't figure out things. I always call myself 80% because I do figure things out but only 80% not 100% nobody notice the 80% you do people only see the 100% you show but the question is 80% also did the same job, the job which was asked to be done but still 80% remained unoticed. People always talk about the 100% and 40% but not the 80% or 75% WHY? THEY ARE NEITHER AT THE FRONT NOR AT THE BACK!! 


Somewhere between the applause the toppers receive and the chuckles the backbenchers enjoy, there sits a quiet crowd—the middle benchers. The ones who are neither exceptional nor rebellious. The ones who clap for others' achievements, laugh at jokes they didn’t crack, and leave the classroom without ever being truly noticed.

Middle benchers are the ghosts of the classroom—present, yet somehow invisible. They’re not the ones teachers remember by name, nor the ones who stir trouble. They submit assignments on time, score just enough to pass without glory, and live in a strange, silent war: a battle between the desire to shine and the fear of standing out.

We’ve all seen them.

They’re the ones who look at the toppers with admiration... and a quiet envy. “How do they do it? How can someone have it all figured out?” They try. They make timetables. Promise themselves they’ll study harder. But something always drags them back into that comfort zone of mediocrity, that cage of self-doubt where trying too hard feels like a setup for failure.

They look at the backbenchers too—the carefree spirits, the mischief-makers. Their lives seem fun, rebellious, exciting. But middle benchers? They’ve been taught to obey, to follow rules, to walk the line. Breaking the rules isn’t in their DNA. So they sit. Silently. Watching life unfold from a distance.

And it hurts.

It hurts to always be almost enough. To try and never be noticed. To raise your hand in class only to be ignored. To give answers and not be praised. To walk into a classroom and never hear someone say, “Hey, I was waiting for you.”

They carry the weight of expectations they didn’t ask for—expected to be better, but never celebrated for trying. Expected to behave, but never rewarded for it. They’re always “there” but never belonging—not to the achievers' circle, not to the misfit gang.

They fear being average. And yet, they live in it every day.

What no one tells you is how emotionally draining it is. That ache of invisibility. The slow fade of confidence. The way your heart sinks when a teacher forgets your name, or when your idea is overlooked in a group project. The way your parents ask, “Why can’t you be like them?” without realizing how hard you’re trying just to stay afloat.

Middle benchers learn to comfort themselves in silence. They become the best listeners, the hidden artists, the quiet thinkers. They write poetry no one reads. Design dreams no one supports. And carry burdens no one sees.

But here’s the thing—they matter.

Every middle bencher has a storm within them—a story worth hearing, a fire waiting to be lit. They just need someone to say, “I see you.”

So if you’re one of them—know this: you are more than your bench. More than your marks. More than your invisibility.

You’re a story in progress.
A masterpiece unfolding.
And one day, the world will wish they paid more attention.

With Love, 

Yafiyah💟

Tuesday, 25 February 2025

The Day I Stopped Thinking

 The Day I Stopped Thinking


Ananya was naturally inquisitive. Since childhood, she dedicated countless hours to the library, poring over ancient texts, jotting down notes, and developing her own perspectives on life. she enjoyed tackling intricate math challenges, engaging in philosophical discussions, and writing essays that reflected her unfiltered ideas. Her mother frequently discovered her deep in contemplation, her eyes shining excitedly as she made connections that others overlooked. However, with the rise of AI tools like ChatGPT becoming readily available, Ananya’s reality started to shift—initially in small ways, but eventually insignificant ones.



The Initial Step into the Trap

It all began with minor conveniences. Ananya faced a challenging assignment about the influence of artificial intelligence on contemporary literature. Rather than diving into books and dissecting case studies, she opted to consult ChatGPT. In mere moments, she received a well-organized essay. After making a few adjustments, she submitted it and earned top marks. It felt like a stroke of luck.

As time passed, she relied on AI for nearly everything. Need a book summary? ChatGPT had it ready in an instant. Struggling with a tricky math problem? AI simplified it with ease. It was so convenient, effortless, and ultimately addictive.

Her mother, once proud of Ananya's relentless quest for knowledge, began to notice the shift. "Ananya, why don’t you share your thoughts on this book?" she inquired one evening. Ananya hesitated; she hadn’t actually read it—just skimmed an AI-generated summary. Her mother’s expression fell, but she remained silent.

The Gradual Decline of Independent Thought

What Ananya failed to see was how her mind was quietly slipping into a state of dormancy. She no longer felt compelled to analyze deeply—why bother when AI could handle it? Late-night discussions with friends turned into quick searches for “correct” answers. Her writing lost its vibrancy; it became mechanical—well-structured but lacking in original insight.

One day, Ananya’s professor noticed the transformation. Her once-thoughtful essays had become generic, missing the critical analysis that had previously distinguished her. “Ananya,” she said gently, “this doesn’t sound like you. Where’s your voice? Your perspective?”

Ananya had no response. She realized she hadn’t genuinely “thought” in quite some time.

The Moment of Realization

The turning point arrived during a significant philosophical debate. Ananya, who had once captivated the class with her arguments, now struggled to articulate coherent points. Her mind was a blank slate. Each time a question arose, she instinctively reached for her phone, as if AI could come to her rescue.

This time, she found herself without a screen to shield her—only her own diminished ability to think clearly.

That evening, Ananya sat in her room, fixated on the blinking cursor on her screen. She attempted to write something—anything—without relying on AI. The words didn’t come as easily as they once did. Her mind, which had previously been a wellspring of ideas, now felt slow and foreign. Running her fingers through her hair, frustration bubbled up inside her. "What’s happening to me?" she murmured softly.

Tears began to form in her eyes as she longed for the excitement of uncovering answers on her own. She missed the feeling of her thoughts holding significance.

Determined to regain her mental clarity, Ananya resolved to take small steps. She challenged herself to tackle problems without AI, jotting down her thoughts in a journal unaided, and engaging in discussions without constantly verifying her facts. It was tough and often exasperating, but gradually, the spark of creativity began to flicker back to life. She felt her mind expanding, her thoughts becoming richer, and her imagination reigniting.

One evening, while she was genuinely engrossed in a book, her mother passed by and smiled. "That’s the Ananya I remember," she said, playfully tousling her hair.

AI wasn’t the adversary; it was her reliance on it that had dulled her abilities. She came to understand that AI should serve as a tool, not a crutch.

Ananya’s experience is far from isolated. Many students today, captivated by the ease that AI offers, are unwittingly relinquishing their capacity for independent thought. The key lies in finding a balance—utilizing AI’s advantages while safeguarding the unique human intellect that defines us.

So, the next time you feel inclined to let AI do the thinking for you, take a moment to reflect. Ask yourself: Am I truly learning, or am I merely consuming? Ultimately, no AI can replicate the brilliance of a mind that dares to think for itself.

Sunday, 26 May 2024

பெண் - Woman

 பெண்

Who is a Woman? 

    A Baby 

    A Girl 

    A Sister 

    A Lover

     A  Wife 

    A Mother 

And so on, but is this what a woman is? People in society give us a tagline for women from the above mentions and want us to go as per it and what if we don't wanna go as per their schedule or plan they see us as girls who don't want their life to be good is that what life of a girl is?  why would a girl think that her life should be bad? A woman can also make their decision on her own they don't want anyone to come into it. 

There is always trouble and hurt in the pathway of life of a woman even to get to the title of woman a girl needs to cross a lot of hurdles. We still need to fight for GENDER EQUALITY in the 21st century in some places. People treat us as a child who cannot find their path even when we reach the age and have enough maturity and knowledge. Every girl has a child inside her just because she shows her inner child outside does not mean she is unfit to lead her own life. 


   A woman has elegance in her face, bringing peace to the home she lives in and the home she goes in. Women only have a stable home once they reach the age of marriage after marriage they eventually shift their house even sometimes the house she go in does not value them. It's not like they should be devoted to their husbands it's all about equality in the relationship i am not mentioning that wives should not listen to their husbands they should listen but before listening to them listen to your own heart first and then react further if it makes you worried confront the opposite gender, if that makes you sad confront them just don't blindly listen to them.  APPRECIATION and RESPECT are the main keys that are lost in a woman's life they keep on searching for it yet they don't get it. Now, many things have changed and people started to give up the keys that have been lost. I'm proud that the new gen has changed and I'm a part of it. ROMBA SANDOSAM YAA! 

Are we missing something? 

Yes, I guess the educated generation has been changed but what about the generation that does not have education and women are still treated in a bad way. I know some people will scream in my inbox like DONT TALK ABOUT THE PASS JUST SEE THE PRESENT!!!!!, But even the present has some people like this in it and why don't we talk about them?? I am too confused about it why?? 

Because the past generation does not know about confronting in my opinion this is why people in the past had issues with proper guidance they could have been confronted with. I am really proud of the current generation and they can bring up their upcoming best outcome. 



Friday, 3 November 2023

3 AM Thoughts

 3 AM THOUGHTS 


NIHAO! Everyone let's talk about the 3 a.m. thoughts a person can get. A person who gets sad is not the saddest a person who gets happy is not the happiest person we are all somewhere between happy and sad a mid-range of life (Irukira yidam theriyama iruntitu poiranu). Have you ever wondered who can be the happiest person or who is the happiest person (yaru da neega enga irukiga)? A life that is created by someone and has settled down to be yours, which can be twisted and turned only by your own actions. I have always heard my dad say "Nothing is Permanent" like even happiness and sadness are not permanent but food without salt is not what we want. But why do we get these types of thoughts at a time when ghosts love to roam. It's all connected to the part of life paths where happiness doesn't come with a pang of sadness, sadness doesn't come with depression, depression brings anxiety where it all leads to some creepy 3 a.m. thoughts. The thoughts might be deep the senses might be deep but remember we all are in the same boat the next morning where people love to scold you in the traffic signals, where the HR is not interested in the hike, where the professor asks you a question in the middle of a class, where math teacher calls you up to solve a sum on the board. It's like an adventure where Dora goes miles and miles away from home just to explore? NAH she moves around so she can be more experienced with people and get lost in her thoughts.



What do I think about 3 a.m. thoughts?

     Actually, I feel very good about the 3 a.m thoughts it really gives you a kick in your ass by your past behaviors which cannot be changed, and helps us not to do it again in your lifetime. Why do we have it? STRESS, ANXIETY, DEPRESSION. I recently came across the movie Appendage which is a must-watch movie. The lead character has gone through a depression which is very severe where the appendage is born inside her which gives her acusition about her own life. Throughout the movie I learned a lesson "Controlling or Managing your emotions you can come past anything". 

How to Overcome it? How did I do it? 

    Every person is unique in their own way, and every person has their own character, Not every person can be the same god has created everyone with his special magic spell like a jadoo. I did a very simple trick which my Grandma gave. It's very simple we would have done it many many years ago. Milk was the one that helped me to sleep really well warm milk has it. I can't say that it works for everyone who suffers from insomnia but I gave it a try even though I'm typing it at 2:00 AM with warm milk Yeah! you guessed it right it helped me but not a lot. I sleep sometimes only when I have peace of mind wait!!! I guess I'm going to topic 😂😜Why do I do it again!. Peace of mind is when I'm free from all my work, assignments, exams, career,  


     


    

    

Friday, 20 October 2023

Life with Boomer's

 Life with Boomer's 


Let's talk about boomers in the 21st century where people are very busy in their day-to-day lives but still, some people are left out in as boomers. Where are you guys even from? (MIND VOICE:Romba nerama nalavan maariyea pesitu irunthiyea da😑) and why do you people wanna poke your nose in our business? Is it even a time pass for you? They stay in our lives as invisible people and appear when problems appear. Boomers are like cups and saucers they come along with the cup(problems) saucer(boomers) why are you guys even alive hufff😥. They come to us with random questions like "What do you do for a living" or "What do you study" Even common questions from them will shake our minds for a bit. When we answer "I Study Science" You can see the immediate regret in their face when you say Science but in a different scenario "I Study Arts " FINISH! (MIND VOICE: Solli mudinchu😬) 


Their bits of Advice: 

 It starts with your group in 11th and they will fix you into a scenario that is only related to their life. At the age of 16 students have to select a group for their further studies in schools. They will come up with a random life and that ends up your life full of confusion which is mostly dumb. Boomers are also known as confusion makers they certainly show up in our lives on a random day and take away our future plans in half an hour. Talking to boomers is fun and frustrating. Most people believe in "Only once we live "  and Yeah!  they live one life and try to change 100 lives with their piece of advice. And the important part here is we can't guess the boomers at first sight when we see them. But without Boomers life feels a little bit note it Just a little bit. Forget it Bommers are more fun when we enjoy it and more frustrating when we overthink it. It's all up to our minds. Talking about them is also satisfying though😂😈

Thank you! 

Yafiyah Zenath .Y

Tuesday, 14 February 2023

single child feelings

 Single child feelings

          


Outline 

       1) why single child?

        2) how people feel about single child?

         3) how to make yourself boostup?

           4) let's explore alone? 

1) why single child? 

         People mostly choose single child due to financial and for many other reasons in their life. People don't always wish to have single child it's their situation they go through. Parents cannot think any harm to their children. But they should also know the feelings of their own child what he/she is going through.

 2) How people feel about single child?

            " I wish i had a sibling" cried every single child once in theri life time siblings are someone who can understand a feeling of the other sibling. We can't express it in words of having an siblings. Siblings are more than a family.

3) how to make yourself boostup?

          Take notes or share your problems to a diary. It can't give us an solution but it can always help us.

           Talk in the face of mirror no other person than yourself can understand you and talking alone is not an mental issues when you have more pressure.


4) let's explore alone? 

         We have mostly spending our life time alone so what is wrong with exploring alone . By being a single child we have come through everything alone so why can't we explore our life alone. Being alone is not by choice it's more than anything in the world .




Somewhere between 100% and 40%

 I always wonder why some people can't figure out things. I always call myself 80% because I do figure things out but only 80% not 100% ...